How do we see the Lord active in our lives? This is called discernment of spirits.“If we could lift the veil and if we watched with vigilant attention, God would endlessly reveal himself to us and we should see and rejoice in his active presence in all that befalls us. At every event we should exclaim: “It is the Lord!” – Jean Pierre de Caussade Gallagher, Timothy M. . The Discernment of Spirits (p. 35). The Crossroad Publishing Company. Kindle Edition.
As he read them over many times, he became rather fond of what he found written there. Putting his reading aside, he sometimes stopped to think about the things he had read and at other times about the things of the world that he used to think about before. Of the many vain things that presented themselves to him, one took such a hold on his heart that he was absorbed in thinking about it for two or three or four hours without realizing it: he imagined what he would do in the service of a certain lady, the means he would take so he could go to the country where she lived, the verses, the words he would say to her, the deeds of arms he would do in her service. He became so conceited with this that he did not consider how impossible it would be because the lady was not of the lower nobility nor a countess nor a duchess, but her station was higher than any of these. Gallagher, Timothy M. . The Discernment of Spirits (p. 36). The Crossroad Publishing Company. Kindle Edition quoting the Autobiography of St. Ignatius[i], p. 23.
Nevertheless, Our Lord assisted him, causing other thoughts that arose from the things he read to follow these. While reading the life of Our Lord and of the saints, he stopped to think, reasoning within himself: “What if I should do what St. Francis did, what St. Dominic did?” So he pondered over many things that he found to be good, always proposing to himself what was difficult and serious, and as he proposed them, they seemed to him easy to accomplish. But his every thought was to say to himself, “St. Dominic did this, therefore, I have to do it. St. Francis did this, therefore, I have to do it.” These thoughts also lasted a good while, but when other matters intervened, the worldly thoughts mentioned above returned, and he also spent much time on them. (23–24) Gallagher, Timothy M. . The Discernment of Spirits (p. 37). The Crossroad Publishing Company. Kindle Edition.
Yet there was this difference. When he was thinking about the things of the world, he took much delight in them, but afterwards, when he was tired and put them aside, he found that he was dry and discontented. But when he thought of going to Jerusalem, barefoot and eating nothing but herbs and undergoing all the other rigors that he saw the saints had endured, not only was he consoled when he had these thoughts, but even after putting them aside, he remained content and happy. (24) Gallagher, Timothy M. . The Discernment of Spirits (p. 38). The Crossroad Publishing Company. Kindle Edition.
He did not wonder, however, at this; nor did he stop to ponder the difference until one time his eyes were opened a little, and he began to marvel at the difference and to reflect upon it, realizing from experience that some thoughts left him sad and others happy. Little by little he came to recognize the difference between the spirits that agitated him, one from the demon, the other from God. (24) Gallagher, Timothy M. . The Discernment of Spirits (p. 39). The Crossroad Publishing Company. Kindle Edition.
"Amen, I say to you, tax collectors and prostitutes are entering the kingdom of God before you. When John came to you in the way of righteousness, you did not believe him; but tax collectors and prostitutes did. Yet even when you saw that, you did not later change your minds and believe him." Matthew 21: 28-32
You say, "The LORD's way is not fair! "Hear now, house of Israel: Is it my way that is unfair, or rather, are not your ways unfair? Ez. 18: 25-28